Beloved

I absolutely LOVE that word
Beloved
You could say the word beloved is beloved by me
But then you would punch me in the face

We are commanded to love God and love His people
It's supposed to go hand in hand
Loving God is supposed to lead us inevitably to loving His people
I think that's where our hearts get confused, we try to love with our own capabilities
We trust that we can love someone with our own heart's strength
That's where we start to burn out and get tired of things
Our hearts are not capable of loving someone the way the Father is capable of loving
So when we try to do it on our own, we're left with resent or apathy because we eventually get tired

It's all about changing perspective
To love one because they are your friend or family is superficial
To love someone because they are His beloved, just like you, is a change that I'm trying to understand and comprehend
John 3:30 is basically the best explanation to what i'm trying to say i guess
He must become greater, I must become less
In all things I'm trying to let that happen
It's hard, because I want to change the world, i want to be part of that revolution
I can't be sitting here in an office all my life
But I have to trust that God's plan for my life is greater than what my plans are for my life
How cliche, but how true

I try to love

I still have SOOOOOOO much to learn

It's hard when I try to... when I try to... (ok I was trying to put emphasis on "I" by capitalizing it, but I realized it's already capitalized to begin with... so just catch my drift and move on)
My office mate farted the other day
I came back from the bathroom and it smelled horrible
He didn't make eye contact or offer a what's up like he usually does....
I wanted to punch him
But I didn't
At that moment, it felt impossible to love him
How fickle our heart is when we decide to control it

Anyways, I bring this up because I was at a retreat this weekend and I was pretty blown away
Love, unfailingly, was in Goshen, VA this past weekend
There was one moment that made realize how little I know about what love is (still..)
We were welcoming a brother into the family, this beloved brother of mine
And the love surrounding him that morning was something I can't say with words
So let me draw you a picture
But you can't see this picture because I'm drawing it on my desk
Anyways
Yea basically, love God and let God take care of it from there
I dare you
I double dog dare you

Also
The NCAA tournament is upon us
Go Duke!
My final four consists of duke, kansas, ohio state, and wisconsin
Duke vs kansas
Duke wins!
So far so good
I like putting my sports stuff on here and seeing how wrong I was like a year later
I love making predictions

The corporate world is SOOOO overrated
I have an office which is cool
And i have a view of Oak Marr's golf course
Those are the only perks
I just sit and do whatever other people tell me to do for the sake of making money for themselves
And then i realize i hate golf... and life moves on

Friday Night Lights was probably one of the greatest TV shows
and now it's over
makes me sad
Really loved the characters
and the leadership of Coach Eric Taylor
and his relationship with his wife
That is all
WATCH IT!