Can't Sleep

Took a long nap today at around 5

can't sleep

thought i'd update

forgot a november update so this makes up for it i hope

it's been a pretty relaxed november and even december

not much has really happened, and i understand how blessed i am that i can say that

Me and phil coached a youth flag football team from about august till thanksgiving

i think that was one of the hardest things that i have ever had to do (involving youth kids)

luckily we are champions so we don't get crap for messing with this so-called dynasty

honestly, the main thing for me was fixing their attitudes about football,

they're so cocky because of how they've won it for the past 4-5 years

i mean, with a church this big, you would hope that you would be able to put up a team that's competitive, especially with all the "resources (players)" that we have simply because our church is so large

i mean i look at the team we played in the championship, they were basically playing with 6 players (1 had a hamstring injury) both ways and they still played really really well

whereas we had 25+ kids and they were basically fresh all day, even though they claimed to be tired...

this team was good, but really, i think losing a game would have given them something to talk about

o well, maybe next year

it reminded me a little of my life, in the sense that i'm so "used' to being a Christian, that i get cocky in a sense, listening to sermons, i catch myself thinking that i could finish that sermon, or he/she could've said this or that, etc. 

the hunger is not there 100%

i need to get hungry

besides football, nothing much has really happened

i really want to play more football, it soothes me

i've been playing basketball a little more these days

it's been pretty fun

still, i miss my first love

but nobody plays, it's harder to find a good game of football

it's getting colder and colder

i'm gonna miss fall

we had a good run

i hate winter

i want to move to a place where they only have fall weather

that would be better to me than cali weather

i still have not been out to cali

there's so many people we could be visiting

but because i am a broke worthless man, i just sit at home and look at pictures of what could be

i feel like fall is the primetime season for relationships

whether it's the dating relationship or the friendship relationship

something about this weather makes people want someone in their lives

*advertisement*

there is a secret singles club consisting of 4-5 gentlemen who seek more people to suck into their group so we, i mean they, can have cool roadtrips and such

i kno all of you are interested

speaking of which

i don't know what the hype is about people who are always seeking girl/boyfriends

if it happens, it happens,

at least that is my mentality

iono tho, that may be also the reason that i am single

but no complaints here

it weirds me out when i find out that peers of mine get married or are engaged

i'm looking at a wedding invitation and i'm realizing that it's not for my parents but for ME

i kind of don't know what to say or do

i'm excited for him, i think they went on their first date using my car and ipod

hahaha, awesome, i should get some kind of thank you gift

but yea, more and more people around my age are getting married, or courting

gross

the thing i think about for newly married couples is this:

what happens the first time the husband or wife takes a nasty dump

and then the other walks in

do they like embrace the smell realizing that it's husband/wife, or do they go in the opposite direction and like the relationship is never the same?

also, the thing about marriage that freaks ME out, is sharing the bed,

if any of you know me, although i may not care about sharing most things, the bed is a sacred object to me

it should be yours and yours alone

i'm not saying that man and wife should get seperate beds, but... i don't know, i don't kno if i would ever be able to handle that

i say this also for their protection, i love moving around while i'm sleeping, whether it be before, during, or after sleep

having someone next to you restricts what i naturally love to do, which is move around

i guess we'll have to get a shaq sized bed, iono, we'll see what happens if it ever comes down to that (me getting married)

honestly, i would rather sleep on the couch or on the ground than share a bed, even it they are a close friend, i'm all about personal space

that's also probably a bad thing about me,

if you are too close, i'm movin around and such

i don't kno why

i'm also not very good at eye contact, i think it's because as a little kid, i was taught that if you start into a dog's eye long enough they will attack you, and in that way, a human may do the same thing

it's just habit i guess

and also the covering of my mouth thing

i had a friend in elementary school who had braces, he was so self-conscious about those braces that everytime he spoke, laughed, whatever, he would cover his mouth, thinking that was a stupid thing to do, i too did it to mock him and to show him how redickulous he looked

unfortunately, i am now stuck 12 years later doin the same freakin thing..

my childhood was filled with redickulous things

i still remember one of the first times i was ever lied to

i was about 7, and i was riding in a car with my sister and 2 of my boys

these boys were younger than me (one was only 1 year younger and the other was 2)

i had a toy bear that i dearly loved, i still remember the bear, it was sherbet gree and had plaid overalls, i'm sure it was ugly but i LOVED that bear, it was my best friend 

well this boy, let's call him, dave, had my bear, because i took this bear everywhere i went apparently, and he was playing with it, and i'm guessing because he wanted to see if my bear could fly, held my bear outside the car windom, i was like noo (think Darth Vader after he finds out natalie portman is dead), but he told me "trust me Andy, i'm not gonna drop him"

literally three seconds after i see the bear flying

i just sat there realizing that i had just lost my best friend

and also, that someone had said one thing, and something else had happened

it was a psychological blow, and to this day i still remind this "dave" guy that he threw my bear out the window

ever since then i could never look at bears the same way, nor can i trust people, but that may be from watching too much t.v. as a kid (like WWE, where people turn on each other every other month...)

i also remember saying "you suck" for the first time to an adult,

the next few weeks after that seemed very fuzzy from what i can remember....

there were so many adventures as a kid, i wish i could remember them all

seriously, being a kid at KCPC was probably the greatest thing ever

there were trees everywhere, bushes everywhere, it was a big church so you kno there were kids everywhere, i mean what more could you want?

in my group of friends there were plenty of different personalities

the majority were those who played sports, whether it was football, basketball, soccer, and so on

there was the kid who constantly did the dangerous stuff, mainly burning stuff and climbing stuff

there was always a new kid that we had to pick on and basically "initiate"

there were the nerds that we picked on, but no1 else was allowed to pick on

and so on and so forth

it's cool, because i have friends who i've known my whole life

like literally 20+ years of my life, and i'm "only" 23

and there's no sign that i won't know them for the next 20+ years

i think that's so cool

like i know i don't always see these friends of mine, but i guarantee that when you put us back into a circle or something, it will seem like there had been no time lost

it's seriously like a cheesy movie or something

my goal is to become the next "where the hell is matt?" guy

it'll be "where the hell is andy?" but probably with a cooler title

if you don't kno who or what that is, it's basically a dude who goes around to different countries and does a dance in that country, and he's doin the same dance at all these different random spots

like he'll do it in front of the san francisco bridge, or in front of the eiffel tower, or some spot in india, australia, etc.

how cool is that?

and he freakin got PAID to do it

by Stride.. of all groups

but yea, that is my goal in life

to be paid to travel and do awesome things

(wherethehellismatt.com)

it's weird, i haven't been this nostalgic in a while

well that's a small glimpse of my life

gotta wake up for morning prayer in a few

cool

promise in the dark- keri hilson

kids- MGMT (sick group)

I'd rather be with you - Joshua Radin (m.v. is pretty money)

Rainman- Jamie Foxx

Changes- Common

Give up your guns- Royce da 5'9

Cringing- The Dream

after tonight- Justin Nozuka

It's almost time for the holidays

What's up
I just realized how close we are to the holiday season!
it really is the best time of the year
everyone is back from school
people are just generally happier (probably cuz they know that they're getting a gift)
the only thing i dislike about these times is the traffic that occurs everywhere i go
but besides that
it's the beginning of a new year
yes, i know for me the new year started when i graduated from school and got sucked into the real world
but i'm gonna go ahead and wait for the new year to officially consider myself an adult

i guess thinkin about
i have many things that i wanna do from here until next year

1.) Find a job
This one i don't really care for, but for my parents sake, i feel i should, just so my parents don't have to keep answering to those dummies who constantly ask them if i've found a job yet......

2.) Find a hobby
I've realized that video games can only go so far
I refuse to learn any more chords for the guitar
so that leaves me with nothing
i will make that something into nothing

3.) Try to zero in on what i want to do with my life
My goal in life is to be a principal
But in order to become a principal, i must become a teacher
so that is what i'm thinkin about workin on rite now
P.E. teacher seems ideal yea?

4.) Work on my shoulder
My shoulder has been giving me problems for the past 2 years
something is wrong with my rotater cuff
as well as the ligaments around it
but luckily i am some kind of robot and i can still move it
i refuse to do nothing about it
i will figure out a solution

5.) Visit Tech more
I visited my alma mater this weekend
it was one of the best decisions that i've made in a while
it was so good to see my kids again
it was also amazing to hear Pastor Q speak again
that man is a legend in my books
even though i didn't go to a hokie game or experience home place
it was still one of the best times, probably cuz i got to hang out with a lot of awesome peeps

and lastly
6.) I want to become a legend
My whole life, i've been nothing but basically worthless
no more
whether it be a football legend, ping-pong legend, cursive-writing legend
whatever
i want to become awesome at something, i think it'd be pretty cool to be able to be do something that's pretty amazing.
iono
we'll see what happens

so the Phillies won the World Series
good for Charlie Manuel
he deserves it
the Phillies have waited a long time, not 100 years long, but still long
i really hope the cubs never win
they've become so consumed with the "curse" that they've really come to believe that their team is cursed
that's why they don't try harder in the playoffs
they don't have the heart and mental game to push themselves to another level, because in their minds, the curse is bigger than their team, which is stupid and foolish
and for that
the Cubs will forever be losers in my books
At least the Red Sox fought hard when they played to break their "curse"
they constantly came out and said that the team was bigger than any curse
i hate the sox with a passion
i hate them more than i hate sand
and i am a man who truly hates sand
but i can't knock their hustle
Yankees for life

went to a wizards game tonight
we really really really need Gilbert
blatche will be solid
so will Caron (as always)
antawn will be streaky
my guess for the championship.. realistically? i think it's gonna be the celtics again
i don't think KG and PP are players who will be satisfied with just one
they're like kids who have just had candy for the first time
it was sweet and delicious
now it's time to gorge and get fat
so to speak

i have saved the best for the last
the redskins have looked pretty solid to this point in the midseason
our schedule looks interesting for the 2nd half
many difficult home games, but games that we can win
i believe that 3 teams from the nfc east will make the playoffs again
will one of those 3 be dallas?
who knows?
i do
they WON'T
holler

people wonder what i do with all this free time that i have
i think
honestly, i think a lot
about random crap
but i also have come to realize a lot of things

my family freakin rocks
yea they give me grief about finding a job, but really, they've been pretty patient and understanding
i really am thankful for that
my sister has been helping me like crazy to find a job as well, she's pretty cool i have to say
my parents have been MAD calm about me finding a job, they're also very supportive, and make me do a lot of slave work, but no real complaints here
my grandma is awesome, i know she loves me, simply put
and last but not least, my homie baxter, he has been my best friend through all of this

while i've been on this "break," i've watched many tv shows and listened to many good songs
T.V. shows that all of you must watch:
Eli Stone
Chuck
It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia

no joke these three shows will change ur life

I've also seen the Guitar Hero commercial with Kobe Bryant about 10 times
it's hilarious
A-rod and M. Phelps kill it at the end of the commercial
haha
but kobe is, as always, the star

listen to:
John Legend- This Time
Kanye West- Coldest Winter
Lady GaGa- Starstruck
Jedi Mind Tricks- Godflesh
seriously anything by Amos Lee
Live Your Life- Royce da 5'9 version, so much better than T.I.'s version no joke

enjoy

Showtime!

Welcome to my monthly update
I've basically been pretty worthless for the past month, i haven't done much, but i hope to soon end all the worthlessness, i have finally started looking for jobs
....
kind of..
i'm more willing to go to interviews and such now...
haha

as for any crazy updates in my life
none

The Redskins on the other hand..
freakin AY
the offense is productive, the defense is holding up, and our special teams isn't too shabby
honestly we look good, but it's hard to be confident in this team
and i only say that because our point differential is so low..
if you look at past champions in any sport, the teams with high point differentials are usually up there, if teams are blowing out other teams consistently, it shows that they are more legit than a team where the point differential is lower usually means that the team tends to get lucky more than they are good
now i'm not saying that the redskins are lucky, but, as much as i believe the skins are in an elite class, i can't put my guard down until we've won the Super Bowl

with that being said
i think Clinton Portis is the early season MVP
that dude has been a workhorse since day 1
although we traded a lot (and i mean ALOT) for him
in the end, we didn't get as badly shafted as i had originally believed

baseball has been a disaster for me all season long.
first of all, the yanks aren't in the playoffs for the first time in like 14 years..
what a freakin shame... even yanks haters must admit, it's not the same without them...
although the rays actually look like a baseball team this year.. wow
i think the red sox-rays game is going to be closer than people believe, these guys did not back down to the red sox this year, and in the playoffs, anything can happen.. although i fear experience may win out in this case...
the dodgers and phillies matchup is actually pretty exciting
i want to see a manny vs. the red sox matchup for many reasons, these reasons include:
i hate the red sox with a passion, which actually led to me liking the yankees, despite popular belief that i became a bandwagon fan..
anyways.. yea, seeing the red sox lose to the dodgers and joe torre and manny.. brings joy to me
speaking of joe torre, he is another reason i want the dodgers to win
that man deserves all the good things that have come his way
dealing with the steinbrenners (hank and george) takes much juevos and patience
and he's a players coach, he's not a power hungry manager like many out there, he's a good guy, i'm really sad that he got screwed over here, but i still love the dude, he was a great manager for the Yanks and brought back this once proud franchise to the elite team that it is now

i hate bud selig
he screwed over the astros this year
how convenient that in the middle of a hectic wild card race, during the hurricane, they are asked of all places, to play in milwaukee, against the cubs, whose fans are merely an hour away from there
hm...
and mind you, at this point the astros had been on a HUGE tear since the all-star break..
home field advantage is important in sports, and the astros having to play at "home" in milwaukee was just... redickulous (yes i still spell it this way and always will)
hm.. wait a minute, u say bud selig is still connected to the brewers? oooo.. and who made the wild card?
the brewers you say?
how ever did that happen?
bud selig, and believe me, i'm not the only person that believes this: you are the worst commissioner in sports today

sorry i had to vent about the stros being gayed this year...

moving along.
Capitals.. stanley cup 2009 baby
wizards.. nba championship.. someday!!

i realize that the more and more i sit and do nothing, the more and more i get tired...
i need to do something with my life
and i'm pretty sure i say this all the time..

Church life has been pretty hectic
Being the JG slave has it's ups and downs.... many ups.. few downsand in no way am i complaining
but overall it's been a very humbling experience, and it will continue to be so
i have no plans of being a pastor, but seeing these pastors in their elements
it's pretty interesting
being a pastor is more than just speaking on sundays and leading bible studies
you are invested in these students
you believe that God is going to work in each and everyone of these kids
it's hard to see so many fall away or not care
it takes a toll
all you can have is faith i guess
hebrews 11:1 rite?

breathe

listen to:
can you love me- Brie Stoner
come down- Brie Stoner
You Don't Know Me- Ben Folds
Through My Eyes- The Game
Coming Down- D.O.E.
Love Remains the Same- Gavin Rossdale
Halo- Pussycat Dolls (i kno.. i kno..)
Anything by Album Leaf and Amos Lee

until next time.

Friday Night

Well here i am on a friday night

I mean what else would i be doing instead?

yea...

well this week was by far the least productive week i've had in a while.. i'm guessing like 22 years ago when all i would do was poop, eat, and sleep

wait..

include browsing the internet and here i am 23 years later.. nice life

well at least i put myself available to work, it's a good first step

the week before, i was able to go to NY/NJ to hang out with my homies sam, raymond, and wes

it started off with a journey to Atlantic City, lo and behold... i had lost my wallet on the way TO New York, so i didn't have any money or ID... tight.. i really don't think God wanted me to gamble...can't blame Him..

but our team collectively won like 400 bucks... and that's because one of us lost 100 bucks..

so it was a pretty successful night!

hahaha

thanks to the riches that God provided our team, we were able to go to Six Flags.. New Jersey style.. basically free of charge

i will tell you this.. i went to Busch Gardens and had a GREAT time

this was just as great!

the lines were long, but the wait was SOO worth it

There's this ride called the "El Toro" it was definitely the best roller coaster i've ever been on.. and the best part was that it was a WOODEN roller coaster.. no flips no fancy stuff.. just plain speed.. it was SICK

Then we rode on the tallest roller coaster probably in the world, it was 450+ feet high

The main thing about that ride, besides the height is that it goes from 0-120 mph in about 3 seconds

The Nitro was next....it's Apollo's Chariot x100.. it was awesome

We rode the Medusa, which was another excellent ride

We then proceeded to wait another hour and a half to ride the toro again.. it's SOO MUCH better at night..

Besides six flags, we had some pretty good food

Diner food is delicious

Grease Trucks... just.. go and try... i was very impressed.. although i thought i was gonna have a heart attack at any minute

Pat's cheesesteaks... consistently good..never dissapointed

Shake Shack.. greatest burgers dude.. seriously.. it was delicious.. well worth the wait as well

New York is where it's at.. haha

when i got bak home to Nova.. i was severely dissapointed by the fact that i had to drive again...

another dissapointment was watching the Redskins play

it was kind of gross

o well

there's 15+ games left to play

i believe!

so i've been thinkin about what i want to do with my life

at this point..i'm leaning towards being a teacher

of life perhaps

a gym teacher would be awesome

or some kind of sports marketing teacher

i've got it figured out if it ever happens

Teach for America?

Peace Corp?

this is kind of exciting actually.. there's so much left to do... being an adult has it's perks

although i really miss the Hokie Nation

i should be at activities rite now, and then going to sleep early cuz i would have a ministry meeting

i will not miss those tho, i can't lie...

but everything else

makes me so nostalgic

but i will recover

football season is officially here

this year will be different

i will not be as consumed.

mainly cuz i almost have no choice

haha

o well

serving in JG is going to be tough

i already kno it will

but i want to see what God has in store this time

so just .. bring it

haha

i guess with all the free time i now have i will try to frequently update this site

holler

wait, here are some songs that everyone must have/listen to:

like father, like son - Gym Class Heroes

Against the Grain- Akon

Over the Edge- Akon

My President- Young Jeezy

Can't Find the Words- Karina

The Love We Got- Karina

enjoy life!

Wow

Many a things have happened since my last update

China

First concert

Busch Gardens

China was an unbelievable experience

but i mean, how could it not have been yea?

I wish i could express in words how awesome China was

God is faithful

even when we are faithless

i'm just gonna leave it at that

I went to my first concert this year

it was AMAZING

Busch Gardens was so fun

Rode the Gryffon 3 times

Alpengeist 2 times

The Loch Ness Monster messed up my neck

Overall a great experience

Good times with great people

The rest of the month has been spent saying goodbye

Pete, Danny, college kids (including grad students), Brian, soon Sam Chang
i mean really?

i JUST got bak home and they're all leaving

altogether at that
Forget it, i'm moving to cali too

I'm gonna miss Tech

the more and more i talk 2 people about Tech, the more i'm saddened by the fact that i will be returning in the fall

graduating is overrated, stay in school as long as you can

i hope i don't get depressed this year

I'm sure God has bigger things planned out for me

I'm so excited for Hokie football this year!!

It's the year of Tyrod Taylor

sorry Glennon, you had you're chanced, and then you CHOKED

The same goes for the Redskins

I believe

25-0

Jason Campbell, it's all on you (no pressure)

I'm about to bust a Peter Pan

cause there ain't no way that i'm growin up

hahah

if y'all are still reading this:

lift up a quick prayer for China and N.K.!!

sweet

Life comes at you quick

enjoy it while it lasts

i promise i will make the most of this year

and i promise i will make more of an effort to update this thing

unfortunately i am a boring boring man

o well

China

Off to China in about 24 hours
Can't wait!!
Pray for us, we're gonna need it

Heard the new Nas CD
it's really good
He's lyrically brillant
The production isn't too bad either

Life is good

good day- Nappy Roots
America- Nas
Testify- Nas
Make the World Go Round- Nas
Fried Chicken- Nas
Cookie Jar- Gym Class Heroes

that's about it
enjoy life

Welcom

What's up
Life's been pretty good since i graduated
I've been taking summer school (public speaking)
I've been preparing for China
and I've been pretty worthless
Yesterday i went to 4 graduations
redickulous (yes, i still spell it redick-ulous)
anyways
i already started missing the VT life
it's almost depressing to realize that i will never be going bak as a full-fledged student
so sad

I can't believe i'm goin bak to china
it's gonna be quite an experience
preparing for this trip has been MAD hectic
and hard
and i hate running
i will never learn to love this "jogging" or "yogging" it might be a soft j
i'm getting too old for this, hahah

i'm kind of glad that the lakers may lose
again
it's the lesser of two evils (celtics)
kind of like kobe, i'm not a big fan of kg
again i respect his game
but
i just hate the fact that he gets so intense during the game but is unwilling to finish out the game but rather try to let his teammates finish it out for him, i don't understand that
he's a great player, but his intensity does not match the need to kill it in the end
i don't kno y that bothers me so much, but it does...

the super bowl, the ncaa championship, and nba finals all had teams that i hate... except memphis
i think derrick rose was the most talented player in college basketball this year
as a Freshman none the less..
i believe he'll be better in the nba than michael beasley, rose just wants it more

i'll talk about the skins later, once i catch up on all the summer stuff

here's some songs that everyone must listen to:
Nas- Hero (sick)
The whole N.E.R.D. cd
Robin Thicke- Magic
The whole Usher cd is pretty decent
Birthday Girl- The Roots
yes

Graduated!!!

It's over ladies and gentlemen
it's been one HECK of a ride

More on what i'm gonna do with my life once i figure it out
thanks to all for their love and support

Closer

As my time at tech comes closer and closer to an end
I realize just how much closer i am in having to "grow up"
Sweet

I know how i always say how i'm sad that it's almost over
but i really mean it
i guess it is important that i do move on though

i always talk about the same things

Yesterday was my last day leading the freshmen homegroup
it feels like it was just yesterday these kids were put under the responsibility of 4 random (yet chosen) leaders
who knew that God was going to do the things that He was going to do within this group!?!
geez
i'll really miss this bunch
they grew up SO much
there were times in the middle where i was so lost and confused in the direction that we were going
but man thank GOD i'm never in control!
dah
words can't express what i feel for this group
i'll miss you all
as i was praying for the freshmen last night, it was so hard knowing that it was over
but i know God's not finished with them yet, whether or not i'm here
good stuff

i can't keep writing

Almost Over

Dang yo
I'm almost finished with school
It's been fun this past month
i'm really gonna miss this place
and i'm pretty sure i've said this about 1000 times
but i really mean it

By the way
i called Kansas winning the whole thing at the beginning of the year
holler
i feel good about that one..

Nothing much has happened since my last update
haha
sorry

but as soon as i find something awesome to write about
i will update
thanks

here's some good songs to listen to:
Leona Lewis- Take a Bow
Leona Lewis- Whatever it Takes
Leona Lewis- Better in Time
Leona Lewis- I Will Be
Rick Ross- Luxury Tax
Rick Ross- Speeding
Rick Ross- Maybach Music

that's about it for now
enjoy

Life after Death

Had a conversation the other day with a rap enthusiast about just music in general
It's always enlightening to hear other people's perspectives on music
the main question i wanted to know was what makes music good?
Why do people enjoy certain songs?
The lyrics i understand, but the song itself
How is a song catchy?

at the same time, isn't that why music is so great?
it brings about so many different emotions and it's not cut and dry, there are different genres and all that other stuff
it's awesome

Rap is rap
i'm not sure what it was like in the days of run-dmc or public enemy or those "old-school" rappers
but i do know that those guys laid the foundation for the greatest rappers of all time
it's just like the NBA
the old school ballers like dr. j, jerry west, wilt, they laid the foundation for the greatest players of all time: jordan, magic, duncan, bird, shaq
crazy
our generation experienced probably the greatest era of rap and basketball
coincidence?
iono
with that i also know that we are in a generation where rap and basketball have evolved into style over substance
in a generation where someone like soulja boy and antoine walker are allowed to be in their respective occupations
i'm sad
rap needs Biggie back
2pac.. eh... overrated

speaking of overrated
saw 10000 BC
HA.. what a joke of a movie
those fake blue eyes were the only things that made it interesting
there were moments when the graphics were crazy
there were other times when it felt like i was watching a movie from the 90s
i mean c'mon

almost done with school
i'm gonna be an alumni
probably for the last time
who knows?

God is good

people you need to get these songs:
the light 2008- Common
say- John Mayer
hip-hop saved my life- Lupe Fiasco
say (all i need)- Onerepublic
a-punk- vampire weekend
pocketful of sunshine- Natasha Bedingfield (hollerrrrr)
court and spark- Herbie Hancock
river- Herbie Hancock
hope- Jack Johnson
slow dance- John Legend
anything by michael jackson (25th anniversary)

Life

I always tend to update when i'm in my theories class
i think it because i'm the only one with a laptop and i feel obligated to seem like i'm taking intense notes

i can't lie, this semester, i've learned A LOT
whether it be about wine, sociology, LIFE

i'm almost done with school
how redundant

Summer School
DAH
but i will deal with it like i deal with everything else
with Faith

i think i'm gonna start taking more pictures,
i have this camera, and i have all this empty space on my harddrive
i mean.... c'mon what else am i gonna fill it up with?
There are only so many Office episodes and Scrubs i have on DVD
so im just gonna start clicking away
i hope

Being a senior is no fun
I have to keep up because if i don't i risk not being done with school, so there's more pressure now that say... if i were a sophomore...
Sometimes i think about what would have happened had i come to tech as a freshman
and then i laugh because my 2 years at home taught me a lot about myself
i wouldn't trade those 2 years for anything
i became more independent and i hope wiser
Why am i bringing this up?
i don't know
i think it's because i'm going back home
i'm hoping for more of what i experienced the first time around
but i know it can't be the same

sorta sounds like when i go on missions trips
i remember going to Mexico for the first time
it was amazing.. i really learned a lot from Rev. Sam
the 2nd time around... it felt really weird... i lost focus of my purpose there and instead tried to just play the whole time...i learned from that experience as well
China was HOT... my favorite experience
2nd time around? i will make sure i'm better prepared, i'm not expecting the same experience... i'm expecting an experience.. i'm going as a servant.. simply put

whats with this weather?
it's warm.. then cold.. then i get sick
i actually kind of like having an excuse to not do stuff
hahaha
just kidding.. not really..
i actually am only referring to not going to class

holler

Sick

I hate getting.. sick...
i had to watch the superbowl by myself in my bed
my roommates all had places to go so they weren't home
my t.v. was messed up so FOX was fuzzy...
and every once in awhile i'd change channels cuz it was kind of giving me a headache
so i'd watch a little america's next top model
which is a great show by the way
don't judge me
with that
i have to say, the Giants pulled off something very impressive
Patriots really dissapointed
eh
although, Eli Manning, now HE was impressive down the line, but i don't know if he will ever escape his brother's shadow

Conan o'Brien needs to replace Jay Leno NOW

Duke beat UNC
Kyle Singler is the real deal

Got my Shiraz ready
Got my 360 ready
Got my Rockband ready if necessary
and i have my Campus Legend ready
this is gonna be a great weekend
i hope
i just want to relax and not be sick
is that too much to ask for!??!

what should i do?
about anything?
holler

Welcome

So i'm back at school again
awesome
It's my final semester, and it's killing me
whenever people ask me how i feel
i tell em it's a bittersweet feeling
I want (have) to leave, i've spent my time here well i think,
God has blessed me tremendously in my 3 years here, i've met many people whom i will not forget
i love the people here
i love the football enviroment
i love the college life
but
seriously, i mean i know i need to move on
i can't live this kind of life for too long
i really am not ready for the "real world"
but at the same time, i mean, if not now, then when?

i find myself wanting to just play football and have good food
but therein lies the problem...
there seems to be no desire at this time to do something really productive

Pleasing HIM
that's our goal isn't it?

I'll see you guys later

New Year

It's the new year!
Thought i'd just write a little something for those loyal 2 viewers
It's been an interesting year i have to say
It all began with accepting an invitation to go to China
i can't believe that was almost a YEAR ago
since then, many things have happened that have pretty much changed my life
4/16 was a very sad time, more so for my community than myself, but nonetheless, it was still very emotionally draining... through it i loved Tech even more
Then China
OMG... where do i even begin?
Ni Ni Ni
Rain Down
Hans
Gladiator
Squatty Potties
the waking up every morning at 5
Experiencing tru FAITH
bao ze
Rap session
Waking up lenny every morning at 5 (whoops)
Random walking around the hood
basketball with chinese dudes
UNITY
oY
living LIFE

if i go on any longer, i think i'd cry

but yea
actually, those are the 2 most memorable moments of this year
o well
i'm sure God has many more things planned out for me
i'm pretty excited

But, i think i'm going back to China guys

holler